Struggling?

All the corona virus doings, riots, protests and the issues of leaving a church I had been in for over 50 years has finally caught up to me. I felt much like I had a major emotional peak of some kind two weeks ago. May years ago it might have been known as a “nervous breakdown” or an “emotional breakdown”. I lost interest in everything. I was never hungry, never wanted to go anywhere or do anything. Barely got my work done online. Everything just became too much for me. Not being able to see family much, nor seeing people in general, has really taken a toll on me, probably on you as well. Not having my church to go to, not having our usual income because husband was laid off last year has been just too much. My chest hurt, every thought brought tears. I wasn’t sleeping, just laying there crying and praying. I felt like I was dying. It was probably the perfect storm of events for me, the usually very strong, pragmatic one. Up until two weeks ago I was slowly heading downward.

I got to the point where I couldn’t even concentrate on reading the Bible, couldn’t watch a movie because I lost interest too quickly. Couldn’t do much of anything for crying. So I prayed and cried out to God a lot. That, I could do and I have prayed almost constantly for months.

Two weeks ago I finally reached out and asked for help on the Christian Homekeeper Facebook Group. I know that none of us can live alone. We are meant to be relational and involved in the lives of others and to have others involved in our own lives. So, I explained to the ladies at the group somewhat of what was happening to me and asked for prayer. I was so embarrassed to do that because my issues seem so small compared to some of the other struggles people are having. But I was in a very low place and I felt like I was drowning. Not only did those sweet ladies pray for me, they texted me, private messaged me and asked how I was, gave me encouragement and assured me that they were praying. I know for a fact that some of them reached out to me in the middle of their own struggles. I think that the emotional turmoil would have gone on and on even more if they had not reached back to me and cared for me.

I’ve never experienced that kind of care before, not even in my church. That’s a sad thought, but then again, it’s very encouraging! There is a group of women who love God, love His Son, Jesus and love one another right here at my fingertips. I didn’t have anyone around me to help me but these ladies stepped up! God never ceases to amaze me, especially so when He works and moves through others.

If you’re a woman in need of other Christians to walk along side of you, even if it is online and not in person, check out CHK on Facebook.

Christian Homekeeper’s on Facebook. There are 4 questions that you must answer there in order to join the group. These questions just help me keep the group private and safe! But you must answer them in order to be approved for membership.